Thursday, June 11, 2009

A Heavy Heart

I suppose it is appropriate that I've been sharing things this week using the Heartfelt Collection. Today's post is definitely from the heart, but unfortunately I'm writing with a very heavy, broken heart.

We got word from our agency on Tuesday that our birth mom has severed contact with the agency. We have no other information besides that - no word of why, or how this came about... no reason given for her sudden change of heart.

We are absolutely devestated. We don't understand how this can be happening AGAIN. We just trust that God has a plan for us, and are trying our best to walk in faith.

I'm going to be taking a few days off from the blog to grieve with my family. We do hope to get back on the agency listings and try again soon. Please pray for us.

59 comments:

scrappin' happy said...

Nona, I will be praying for you all. I'm so sorry this is happening again to you all. Lots of love and Big hugs from me and my family.

HaleyD said...

You, your family, the baby and her momma will remain in our prayers.

Kelly Schelske said...

Oh my goodness Nona, I honestly can not believe this is happening to you again.

My thoughts and prayers are with you all at this time.

Hugs, Kelly

Stephine said...

You're all in my prayers. Lots of love and prayers from my family.

Sharli said...

Nona,
I am heavy hearted, too, at your news. I will definitely keep you all in my prayers. Please let me know if there is ANYTHING else I can do to help. Anything.

Hugs,
Sharli

Michele said...

Nona,

I am praying that God will speak to you directly, that you will know his will, his peace and his comfort. I am so sorry this is happening. Please let me know if I can help you in any way!

Alanna said...

Oh Nona. I'm just sick for you and your family. To have this happen twice is just overwhelming.

I know words cannot express my upmost sympathy for you but do know that you are cared about and that I will be praying for you.

lisascreativecorner said...

Oh Nona, I am sitting here with tears filling my eyes! My heart hurts so much for you. We both know that the Lord is in control, but I know must still be very hard! I will be praying for you and your hubby and for the birth mom as well. God is good and hopefully in the end all will work out. Sending super big hugs your way!!! XOXO

Kathi Carlson said...

I am so sorry, Nona. You and your family are in my prayers.

Tamikko said...

Oh Nona, I can't believe this is happening to you again. I believe that your baby is on its way, this one was not to be.
Sending hugs,
Tamikko

Lisa said...

You will understand it better by and by..
Prayed for you and your family.
Hugs,
Lisa

Marie with a :-) said...

Nona,
Wish I had words of wisdom for you, but all I can do is weep with you and pray for you. May you somehow see the Glory of God manifested in this heartwrenching happening.
Hugs,
Marie (without a :-)

Karen said...

I am devastated with you! You and your family will be in my prayers.

Carla said...

Nona,
I'm so sorry that this is happening to you. I, too, have experienced the 'change of heart' of a birthmom & so I understand and feel your pain. Reading your message today brought back all the memories of that 'day' and so I share your tears. But having gone through that experience, I do believe that everything happens for a reason & that the baby that is meant to join your family is still on its way to you!
Warm wishes & prayers to you & your family.

Victoria said...

Nona,

I believe in the power of God's will. HE has greater plans for you & your family. I know this does not ease your pain but I hope you can find some comfort in knowing God is with you and your family...and you have many, many friends in Christ (known & unknown) who are walking this journey with you. God Bless.

sharalyns said...

I'm so sorry, Nona. Prayers being sent for all of you, including the birth mama and her little girl.

JenMessyStudio said...

Oh Nona! I'm so sorry to hear this!! Your family are in my thoughts!

AaronB said...

Know that I will be thinking of you...

Tresa Black said...

I am so sad to hear your devastating news. Just know that my heart goes out to your and your family.

Sheila said...

Oh Nona, I am so sorry to hear this! Your family has been through so much already. {hugs}

Regina said...

I wish I was there to wrap my arms around you and give you the most gigantic hug ever. Although I have no words to ease your pain, I do have an ear to listen if and when you need a place to get it all out. I'm here praying and I'll be here when you are ready to talk.

Love You,
Gina

Lisadwb said...

All involved will be in my prayers.

roxybonds said...

My heart and my prayers go out to you! I am so sorry that this has happened to you again. HUGS and much love!

The Inkredible Crafter said...

Nona, I know no words can express what you and your family are going through at this time. You guys are in my heart and in my prayers. God will provide!

lesliecrosby said...

My heart is heavy for you and your family.

Great is thy faithfulness . . . your strength is amazing.

NancyJo said...

Awww, Nona, I was so touched by your album at Convention that I became a blogee. I was so thrilled to hear you were adopting and so excited and loved the room. My heart is heavy for you and your family. Why, why, why? Only God knows his plan . . . it better be a good one! Hugs and take care.

Scrapbook With Starr said...

Nona, Dave & Sammie,
I am so sorry to hear your sad news. You will be in our prayers! Heavenly Father loves you and has big plans for you. He must think you are really strong to give you this same challenge again.
love tears, and cyber hugs,
Starr

Heather said...

Oh my goodness, Nona. I am so sorry for your loss. I can't believe this is happening to such a wonderful woman and family again. You're amazing outlook on what God has in store for you, though, will hopefully help you get through this. You are definately in my prayers. Sending lots of hugs your way.

denise said...

My heart aches for you and your family. It is so comforting to know that God is in control. The power of prayer is amazing. I know that there are people praying for you and that God hears. May you feel His comfort now.

Take Care.

Carla Harrah said...

Oh Nona, my heart grieves for you and your family. God does have a plan for you and he will do his will in your life in his time. I'm so sorry to hear this saddening news. Just know that my family and I will will be praying for you and yours.
Loads of Hugs,
Carla

Kim Burmeister said...

Nona, you and your family will be in my prayers. I am so sorry to hear this sad news. God Bless!

Sarah said...

I am thinking of you and praying for you! I am So very sorry.

Iona said...

Nona, I told you the other day that you are a special lady and I still stand by that statement. Your family is in our prayers always and an extra special one tonight. Please let me know if I can help you in any way and many warm hugs and go out to all of you. Hugs to you Nona.

Samantha said...

Praying for you and your family. I'm so very sorry to hear this. God works in mysterious ways, I'm possitive that he has a great plan for you. {{{Hugs}}}

Jessica said...

Words can't express my sorrow for you. Your family is in my prayers. Hold on, God does have a plan for you.

Sparkle said...

I'm so sorry Nona. Your family will be in our thoughts. Lots of hugs.

Barb said...

Oh my dear, sweet Nona. I am so so sorry this happened. I am shocked and saddened. When I read this, I could barely breathe and my eyes filled with tears. I wish I could give all of you a great big hug and pray with you. I just don't have words to say... I know how much this meant to you and your family. Just know that our family will be praying for you and Dave and Sammie and you all know who is in control. Stay strong, my friend...God is faithful. And please let me know if there is anything or any way that I can help.

Love to you all,
Barb and Family

Tazzygirl2000 (AKA Erin) said...

I was heartbroken when I read your post- Nona, I am so sorry for all you and your family are going through. You are definitely all in my thoughts! Lots of Love, -Erin-

Missy Hep said...

Nona, You are in our thoughts and prayers. much love and peace. the Hepburns

Jena said...

I am so sad to hear this - I will be praying for you and your family. Take care!

Jeanne said...

Oh my goodness, Nona! My heart is breaking for you all. I'm so sorry to hear this. Wish I could give you a huge hug. Know that you will be in my thoughts during this extremely difficult time.

One day your dream will come true!

Hugs

Stacy said...

Oh, Nona. I cannot imagine how you are feeling right now. My heart aches for you and your family. I will be thinking of you all!

Katie said...

Oh Nona,
May God bless you and your family during this time. My husband and I will be keeping you in our prayers. My heart is breaking for you. Big hugs to you and your family!

Katie

Stampingbee said...

Nona and Family,

Such sad news to hear. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. May all the love and hugs around you help you through this difficult time.

Melanie and family said...

Oh Nona, I am so sorry. I can't even imagine . . . I will be praying for you guys.

Melanie and family

Misty Leach said...

Nona, my friend, I prayed so hard for you, I really did, every day I prayed your adoption would go smoothly, I am broken hearted with you and will continue to pray, with a smidge of hope on the side that God's plan includes more children for you...Huge Hugs! your CTMH sister, Misty

Misty said...

I am so sorry Nona to hear this. Please know my family is thinking of yours and you will remain in our prayers.

peggylee said...

Nora, sweet Nora even though I don't know you. Through your blog I feel we are connected. My heart goes out to you and you family. You all are in my prayers. Thanks for being so real.

mE said...

Hi Nona,

I completely empathize. I am sending big hugs out to you and your family. You are in our prayers for comfort and understanding.

I'm glad you're taking some time off... just focus on loving each other and healing.

Hugs to you!
Erin

jen said...

Nona,

I have followed your blog and realize the many events your family has already been through. You are an extraordinary woman and with time God will reveal his plan for you and your family. Until then know that I am thinking of you and wishing you better days.

Jen
fellow CTMH consultant in Missouri

Tonya W. said...

Nona,
Our Lord gives a peace thar passes all understanding and I know that you are resting in the comfort of His love & presence! You are right, He does have a plan and purpose --- even when we can't seem to make any sense of it! Keep relying on your inwavering faith -- you are an inspiration to us all.

Vanessa Middleton said...

Nona, I'm so sorry this happened to you and your family again. I know it's not the kindest words to say "That sucks!!!"... but it does and I'm so sorry. You're in my thoughts!

CVOChristi said...

I'm a CTMH Consultant too, but we've never met. Thank you for sharing your personal and creative lives with us. You give strength to so many of us by your fine example. Hopefully you and your family are able to draw some comfort now from those around you. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers too.
Christina Harrison

Kim said...

Hi Nona,

I can't believe this has happened to you again. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Hugs

Helen Onulak said...

Sending you the biggest, loving hug that I can long-distance. You and your family are in my prayers. I pray that God will reveal his ultimate plan to you soon.

Stamp Your Art Out said...

I'm lifting your heart up to God. I wish that I was there in person to give you a hug. Cyber hugs from me.

Love,
Yvonne Wickenkamp

Kim Harper said...

Nona,

I have been reading and praying with you for this miracle to happen and was so excited for you and your family. I am so so sorry that you are going through this again. We don't always know/understand why things happen to us. But I believe that they happen for a reason. I believe that He has bigger and better plans for your family, and although they have not yet been revealed, they are going to be amazing.

I will pray for you and your family and know that you are not alone!
Kim

Jennifer said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as well.....heartbroken for you!

DeniceMorton said...

Nona and family,
I would like to joing the other people here and add my prayers for your family, my heart aches for you.